crazy weeks

seriously, this recent days have been the busiest days in the half 2013. works come from everywhere in anytime. I wished I had more than 24 hours per day.

I gotta prepare the next term's research in Indramayu. I gotta make the proposal and to do it I have to read a bunch of heavy and difficult books, in english of course. I hate reading, yeah at least this kind of reading when I can't choose which book I read. the best part is just that mas ezra's been my mentor for this research. yeah, he's the cool man I've told you before in my previous post. he was awesome if I may say. he always listens to all my words patiently, gives many excellent advises, amuses me (accidentally), and answers all of my stupid (and random) questions with all of his heart and thought.

instead, I have to do all the preparation for Limas FISIP UI. my position as the head of divisi keilmuan in my major's organization makes me have to fight with these fucking stuffs. well, actually it wouldn't be that bad if the others helped me during the preparation. oh hell, why couldn't you all be cooperative with me? I got involved in this situation because of you all, because of my love and dedication to my major, because of my responsibility and my duty to keep the story of our championship in the last 2 years. why can't you all just understand my position? why is it so hard to help a little and give your contribution? if we get the winning again, won't you all be proud, huh? but yeah I don't like being forced, that's why I won't force you either. and that's why I was almost out of my mind, got so stress, and also isolated myself from you all. but I won't forget how bacang did help a lot in supporting and calming me down. thanks about that, there. also thanks to mas ezra who was always able to relieve my mind, he did nothing but provided a place (his room actually) and time in many afternoons for me to sit and talk.

one of my mood-booster this week, a random gift from nyombi after we didn't talk each other for some weeks because I was mad at him. he took it randomly in our way from a tree on the side way. stupid that he got hurt when picked this flower. but thankyou, my friend. apology accepted :p

then, I gotta prepare my essay too. for the Limas again, of course. since last year I got the 2nd winner for this kind of competition, this year I wish I will be in the 1st place. that's why I got very crazy because I have to manage the others while preparing my essay. last year I prepared it about 2 weeks before the deadline. but now, even a week before the deadline I started nothing. that's why I was so sad and disappointed when I tried my best to help you all but you all seemed like don't give a fuck about that. but again, thanks to mas ez' for helping that much.

another case, I also have to prepare the event ethno-edu-trip next month. I have to do some survey, prepare the proposal and all of the permission stuffs, and so on. this is not an easy work for sure because the event itself is going to be held out the city and there's no lecturer who will be come with us. that's why I, as the research head, have to do all of the preparation very carefully.

but beside all of the "additional" works, still, campus must go on. with all of the crazy-unending-tasks which is quite good to drive me insane.

but thanks God then on last Sunday, just right when I was on the church, he texted me. it was such a great and wonderful moment I tell you. and about this whole week, you know, I feel like a teenager who is falling in love for the first time. I love the way you text me each day, I love our conversations. but above all, I love you :')