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If I had to live my life without you near me:

the days would all be empty,

the nights would seem so long.

With you I see forever, oh, so clearly

I might have been in love before,

but never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know:

they’ll take us where we want to go

Hold me now, touch me now

I don’t want to live without you

Nothing’s gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of:

I’ll never ask for more than your love.

Nothing’s gonna change my love for you

You ought to know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through,

but nothing’s gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy

Our love will lead a way for us,

like a guiding star.

I’ll be there for you if you should need me

You don’t have to change a thing,

I love you just the way you are.

So come with me and share the view,

I’ll help you see forever too

Hold me now, touch me now

I don’t want to live without you

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love for You

-Westlife-

that's it

cinta seolah kau tidak pernah terluka; menari seolah tak ada yg melihat
cinta seolah kau tidak pernah terluka; menyanyi seolah tak ada yg mendengar
cinta seolah kau tidak pernah terluka; bekerja seolah kau tak butuh uang
cinta seolah kau tidak pernah terluka; cinta seolah kau tak pernah menangis



-adapted from mlss-

hhm

kata orang
'cinta yg terlambat dan tak sempat diungkapkan adalah sebuah penyesalan'

but i say that
"love can't be described by words"
just love with my own way,
maybe even just from the behind
when even nobody realizes
where even nobody knows
when even without saying 'love'
--that's what love actually means

The Prayer

God, let me be blind
so he comes and be my eyes
God, let me be deaf
so he comes and hears for me
God, let me be dumb
so he comes and tells everyone what I feel
God, let me be paralyzed
so he comes and brings me on his shoulders
God, let me lose my hands
so he comes and change my world with his
God, let me lose my breath
so he comes and blows a new wonderful life around me
God, let me be alone
so he comes to accompany and stays beside me always
God, let me die
so he comes to take me forever
--As he told and promised them to me

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Retorism

Why does the black cloud just round over me?
Why does the raindrop just fall on my head?
Why does the tear just soak my face?
Why does the pain just stay in my fragile heart?

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If Tomorrow Never Comes

If tomorrow never comes,
Will you keep your food
when a hunger boy asks for some food?
Will you save your blanket
when a vagrant sits alone in his coldness?

If tomorrow never comes,
Will you let your mouth hurts her?
Will you let your eyes see her tears?
Will you let your ears hear her crying?
Will you keep your hands not to hug and warm –caress-- her?
Will you keep your steps leave her with her loneliness?

If tomorrow never comes,
Will you still freeze your love to the painful heart?
Will you still hold on your arrogance and be selfish?
Will you still ignore all of her desire?
Will you still reject her last request?
Will you still avoid all the memories you’ve ever made?

If tomorrow never comes,
Will you still pretend to be blind and dwarf?
Will you destroy the prayer of a pure heart?
Will you still deny everything you’ve done?
Will you keep in your disguise and lie everyone –even yourself?

If tomorrow never comes,
Will you keep in silence to everyone you meet for the last
--how to say goodbye?
Will you keep your sorry to everyone you hurt
--how to regret and apologize?
Will you stand still on your conceit to everyone in your life
--how to say thank you?

If tomorrow never comes,
what time you will close your eyes tonight?

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dear God

Dear God,,
do You hear all my prayers
do You listen I cry
do You see my tears
do You feel what I feel:
these sadness, these pain, these broken hope?

dear God,,

would You like to answer my prayer please?

i'm too fragile to wait longer

Are you there, God?
I’ve been so exhausted

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Perbatasan

Hidup tak pernak punya batas yang jelas
Batas hanya sebuah nama, rekaan mungkin
karena ia tak pernah cukup nyata untuk bertahan.
Tak ada batas yang jelas antara tawa dan tangis
tertawa dalam tangis, menangis dalam tawa, terdiam
Demikian pula dengan kebijaksanaan dan kebodohan
bukankah mereka yang terlalu berhati-hati dan bijaksana,
di kemudian hari akn menjadi terlalu bodoh, dikecewakan?
Begitu halnya dengan kosong dan isi
bukankah selalu ada kekosongan dalam kepenuhan?, hampa.
Cinta dan benci juga sama
keduanya begitu sulit dideskripsikan dan dibedakan
tak ada batasnya, keduanya cuma nama lain untuk ‘kebodohan’.
Jujur atau bohong pun hanya istilah
bukankah di satu masa orang dikatakan jujur,
sedang di kesempatan lain ia dituduh menipu?
Benar-salah, ruang-waktu
ah, sesungguhnya mereka itu semu
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